Dance like there's no tomorrow

I don't really want no one else.

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 04:32:04 GMT

Hello Wello :D
Yayness,Baby J is back<3

Went to town ystd with Mumzy and Mattzy(:
I had fun plus Mattzy was in an extraordinarily good mood.Like so sweet!Haha.
Will be going shopping again with Mumzy laterrr.

I feel like talking to my sunshine now.
I miss you,sunshine.
7 days<3
& Shobi feels like talking to Leah love.

Speaking of Leah I wasn aware we were gonna meet up for Christmas.
Shit I wont be in S'pore and just like what love said I want all of us to be tgth when we meet up nextt.
Hmph):
Maybe I should get my Mumzy to cook for us and have like a reunion thingy at ma crib once I'm backk.
But then Baby J and Leah love cant take spicy food.
Hmmmm.
Then meet up once I'm back I guess.
I miss ya'll four lovelies muchosss.
And I miss you Gayu mummy.Haven spoken to you for a while):

I'm hungry now:/
And I miss someone nowwwwwwww.
Haha its not a someone someone.More of a nice lovely person.Will be seeing the person soon anyways but nvm.
And and Mr perfect!Haha I miss him(:

Okay,this post is like crapola.
So I'm off.

I LOVE YOU CHRIS BROWN<3

Its time I woke up and saw the truth.

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 11:14:42 GMT

I think its time I let out all the emotions that I've kept bottled up.
I knew you were selfish but I never expected you to be this selfish.
Its so ironic,you blamed me for being selfish and self absorbed then what bout you?
You're a liar and a hypocrite.
I don't use the word hate cause its really a strong word but let me tell you this I hate you.
I really do.
All these shit that you've put me through,all these hurt,pain and blood.
I hate you.
If I could I would like to ask you so much of things face to face.
But its all too late.
I know that I have been a great friend.No scratch that the bestest one could ask for esp you.
Trying to be there as much as I could and loving you to bits and putting you as my priority when it came to friends.
Yeah,I may not have been there all the times but c'mon I am a human and I aint perfect.
But I know that I have been a great friend so all I can say is goodbye and dont expect someone to be something you're not and not willing to be.

This is for you:
Never thought that I'd say wish I didn't love you ever.
You changed me for better for worse I know I was caught up.
Putting you first I never once thought
You would be triflin.

I don’t want nobody but you.

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 11:09:58 GMT

What's poppin ya'll(:
Met up with Leah and Liying on Wed.
Met up with Ly first at her house bus-stop cause both of us dislike taking public transport alone!(:
Trained and laughed a fair bit.Ly darl you never fail to make me laugh<3
Ps-ed.Leah was waiting for us.
Headed to starbucks,bought a drink and we started to talk.
Gosh we talked for uh 3 hrs?
Felt great having heart to heart with em both.
Anyh Leah if you're reading this,cheer up dear<3
I had a lovely time with both of em.
Planning to meet up with em both soon(:

I really really terribly miss Baby J :(
Damn.
Love,hurry come back!

LH left today!:(
Gonna miss her too!

Oooh I just finished reading this fab book.
A relatively depressing one but it was good(:

Aite,I'mma bounce.
Peace.

HEYONG WAY<3

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 09:27:47 GMT

Hello yongy.
First and foremost yong,thank you for everything that you've done for me,for being there for me for four years.
Damn thats a really long time and no matter what has happened you have always stood by me,listening and taking all my crap.
Thanks love,honestly and sincerely from the bottom of my heart.
I still rmb all the times that you have been there for me.Right from the azu crap in sec 1 till my probs in Sec 4.
If it wasn't for you I wouldn't have been able to sit for my MT O's.It was you,your encouragement and love that made me pull myself tgth.
Thank you so so much babe.
I also want to apologise for the sudden cold war.
I just felt like I was burdening you too much,thats why I stopped talking.It had nth to do with you being unable to fix my probs.
I'm sorry yong.Really.I shouldn't have distant myself from you tho at that point it only seemed fair for me to do so.
I'm sorry if that hurt you.
I hope that we would remain BFF(:
I love you hon.
And I hope you're having a blast in Korea.Take care.God bless darl.

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 05:55:11 GMT

HE IS SO SO HOT.OMG.

Baby let's take this time let's make new memories.

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 05:52:30 GMT

'Sup folks.
Things have been fine.
I'm feeling great excluding the fact that I'm having my bloody cramps now and that I can't stop thinking about someone!
Haha.

Okay so Tues was PK!(:
It was amazingly fun.Haha.
Honestly I had a great time with my Dad.Mum and sis gave it a skip so it was just Papa and me.
Left home early and reached temple at bout 7am.
Prayed first before heading to US and UD's kavadi.
Then UG accompanied me to pour the milk.Sweet seh he.
Okay then Dad started piercing for em.
Stand around,videoed and drooled.Hahaha.
I cant believe a certain someone was there.Not bad.Three times (:Hehe.Private joke.Prolly only twin would get it ((:
So aft Dad was done we walked arnd alone.Was fun.
Thats when my heart stopped!OMG OMG OMG.
I srsly cant get over youuuu.
Frigging cuteeeeeee.Ugh.
Damn.So yea.To keep the story short.I enjoyed myself.
I just wished somehow I could get to know more bout you.Ugh.

So yea.Since PK is over.Life is kinda boring?!Haha.Nah I have been enjoying myself.
Uncle C gave me two movies.Ayan and Adhavan.
Gosh Surya is so effing hot.I watched both movies five times.I guess thats kinda insane,considering the fact that I only got the movies on Wed!Hehe.

Okay I think I have a problem.A serious one.I keep getting too att with any movie or drama I watch.Same goes for any book I read.
I just finished reading this bloody good book I got ystd.Its amazing.
And yay,the radio is playing my fav tml song ((:

I was s'posed to go out today.But nah I've decided to stay home instead.HSM marathon in Disney Channel (:
I cant wait to watch HSM 3(:

Cramps kicking in again.
Off to watch ATL(:
Peace.

Want you in my rear window.

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 13:00:35 GMT

Hello Wello :D
Gosh,I have been blogging alot lately.
Haha kinda rmb what you told me when I told you this a year backkk.
Hais.

Anyways Prom's overr.
First and foremost my lovely four loves,Joaquim,Leah,Liying and LH,thanks for talking me back to going for prom.
It would have been a terrible mistake if i din go.
Aft getting my hair and make-up done left to Conrad with Uncle G.
Okay at this point I need to thank my mumzy and Aunt K for everything.And and Uncle G!Omg thank you so much.You're the best adn sweetest<3
Okay so back to prom.Had a fun car ride with Uncle G.
Reached Conrad at bout 6.45?Yea took pics with em loves and other lovelies like Tse etc.
To keep the story short,i enjoyed myself greatly till yong came to me!
Haha I guess Yong and me are the first ones to cry during prom.Ugh.Srsly.
Aft that I couldn really stop the tears so left with precious and GM.
Was bummed out.
Then e text came in.Guess i felt better?I don't know.
I just hope Friday would be the day that changes everything back to norm.I really hope so.
Overall Prom was funnnn.Enjoyed it.Thanks to all who made it so memorable esp the 4 lovelies.Thanks babes.
Date with Leah,LH and my kiddo soon!(:
Muacks babes.
Peace out.

Love you guys.

I can hold my head high and die or I can live and duck.

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 04:09:35 GMT

Hello :D
I'm boredd.
And I'm waiting for my beloved kiddo,liying to wakey and call me back.I miss that girl.
Will be dating her out asap when prom ends.
Speaking of prom,got my dress,shoes and pretty much all the accessories needed cept for my mask.
Ugh.So going mask shopping with mummy aft her work ends,guess my baby J will be joining us too.Yayness.

And speaking of baby J,I went out on a date with her last Monday.
Met her at kovan MRT at bout 10 plus.
Haha was s'posed to meet her at srgn station instead but i din wanna take 53 so baby was so sweet and met me at Kovan.
Town-d with baby.Went into I,W,T etc.
Halfway I got cranky cause I was starving.
Lunched.And had a heart to heart convo(:
Walked a lil more aft lunch.Oh did I mention that there was this uber hot MG!OMG OMG OMG!Hahahah.
Tried on some clothes with her and left town cause it was getting boring.
Ps-ed for a bit and headed home with baby as planned.
The minute we reached my house I started going crazyyyy because MR PERFECT WAS THERE!!
OMG JOAQUIM,MY LUCKY CHARM!!!
Haha even Baby J agreed he is cute.
Aft he left we went to my room and started painting our nails the same colour and started taking pics tgth!I had tons of fun with her(:
She left at bout 7 i think.
All in all I had crazy fun with her.I was kinda sad aft she left cause i started missing her.Like wth right?!But really i was missing her alr!Hehe.
I love you Baby J.
Thanks for such an awesome date and for being there for me ever since we became friends.
Cant wait for another date with you!(:
I LOVE YOU MUCHOSSSS BABY.MUACKSSSSSSSSSS.

I still have 3 more pending dates with both my lily's and LH<3
I cant wait for the dates and esp prom.I really miss em!Plus I miss some of my classmates.Def nt all!Haha.Just those I was close with!(:
Peace out.

Hearts were never meant to race.

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 15:24:56 GMT

OMG!It's over!(:
Haha i was so excited to blog the previous sentence,kinda late but still!Haha.
Date with em lovelies on Wed was simply simply awesome!
Vivo-ed aft the paper.Leah had some interview thing so it was just us four.
B n J-ed and lepak outside Vivo.
Gosh it was just nice,the feeling and everything,perfect.
Leah joined us shortly and went to M to makan.
It was like some family dinner.
Walked abit and laughed alotttttttt.
Gosh I simply love the four.
Wanted to do my signature dedications in this post but decided to do it aft my dates with each of em(:

Okay on Thurs I was rotting at home and was bored to the max.
Then Mum called me for a favor.Grans fell ill so went to TPPC to fetch her to TTSH with Dad.
Hmm it was really frustrating,the waiting and everything but it was all good because i got to spend time with my dad plus _______.Hahaha(:

Friday was more of a movie marathon for me.
UG brought me tons of movies,Gosh he's the best and the sweetest<3
So stayed home to watch em flicks.

Saturday went over to KC's crib.OMG!SW looks so diff!And he looks hot!Haha.Aft chillin at her crib templed with my family.
Home-ed and watched another flick till 12 plus with Matt!(:

Don't you love in vain.

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 06:45:46 GMT

For the first time in my life I'm gonna listen to my mind instead of heart.
I don't wanna hold on no more.Its killing me inside.
I know for real that you're selfish and i'm nothing at all.
Don't wish to say anymore and i don't want to deal with this no more.
Deleted you off my contacts list,all the msgs and everything else.

You say it's now or never
I pick never
We cant be together,
So calm down
No more red eye late nights
I'm one way,
No more connected flights.
Now you can't get
Under my skin
Like you did before
Why was I reluctant
To walk out on us?
So now I'm taking
Back my life
Goodbye

I never felt like this baby.

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 10:12:08 GMT

Quick post before taking my shower to pray.

Shopping ystd was extremely awesome(:
I really enjoyed every second of it,It was awesome to spend some quality family time with Dad and Mum.I felt so happy and loved,haha.I mean honestly a feeling that i haven't felt for so longgg.

I will be going swimming tomorrow(:
Yayness.
Can't wait,hopefully the weather doesn't screw up.
But i still heart the rain(:
Anddd pizza night with Dad and Mum today.Omg!<3

Thanks GM for being such an awesome GM!LOL.
But yea,thanks for the advice and everything else.Love love.

I hate you for being such a fucktard but that's exactly why i heart you.Why does things always have to be so damn ass complicated?!Ugh.

I want you.

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 02:01:34 GMT

My problems?Bigger?I said that?Wow,i never cared?Awesome.What else?
I thought despite all these shit you still cared.But wadeves.
I have been hurting,pushing everyone away.I'm not gonna state the reason here.What's the fucking point?
You would think that its bull,as usual.So fine,wadeves.
You're happy now so let it be
And wth you were the one who pushed her away. so how the hell isit my fault?
Wadeves just go ahead and blame me for every damn shit.I cant be bothered anymore.I don't want to hold on and hurt myself physically and mentally when you're oh so damn happy without me.
So fine,you don't want me back.Let it be.Peace out.

Hello readers.
Yes,i fainted on Monday and it was for real.
Haha,funny sia.
Okay,wasn't actually that funny that time but now looking back i find it amusing.
Had like 3 hour plus lecture in total from everyone at home bout my health!
Yes yes Mummy and Daddy i promise (:
So aft fainting in the morning i couldnt like sleep so i called my Baby to tell her i fainted.Haha.
She was so cute and sweet as usual.Talked to her for like 2 hrs i think.
Then papa came back.Kinda rested the whole day felt very weak.

Ystd was another unproductive yet fun day.
GM called me,yes i have a GM now and i heart her to bits,and we talked for 4 hrs?!
Yepp,was fun talking to her(:
And i forgot to mention,i have a precious now(:And i love her to bits too.Muacks D.
Shitty things happened at night.Turned to ma baby.
And she was there for me like how she has been from the time i started talking to her,
I love you hell loads baby J<3Am so grateful for you in my life.Take care B.I miss you.Cant wait to see you nxt week.

Woke up early today morning to send Matt off to M'sia.
Damn as much as it kills me to say,I'm gonna miss her.
Ugh.
Had a car date with papa.Finally.Have been drifting away from him.Was so happy to just talk to him bout stuff.
I didn't talk much,was listening to dad's stuff.
Aft listening i kinda miss Uncle C.Well hope he will get well soon (:
And now i'm blogging(:
I love holidays coz it beats going to school.
Contemplating if i should watch the hindi movie GM recommended.
But i don't want to get all sad and mopey.
So ugh.
Mummy is taking a day off from work tml to spend time with me(:
Going deeps shopping!!(:Because once school starts its gonna be just me and the books(:

Maybe your blog post was what i really needed.
Honestly when i read it,it felt like someone had stab me with a knife.But wadeves.

I'm too fly to be depressed right GM?(:

Same shit,different day.

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 01:32:44 GMT

LOCKED.

'm just so fuckin' depressed
I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick that myself back up

SHUT UP BITCH.

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 10:54:52 GMT

Ehmagod!SHUT THE FUCK UP.

I swear.I just want to curl up and die.

So shut the fuck up and piss off.

Damn.

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 07:14:01 GMT

Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby

Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about us.

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 01:12:57 GMT

Thanks LH for talking to me for like 2 hrs on the phone.I really appreciate it.
Thanks for making me smile/laugh with yr wrong reactions/timing.It was nice talking to you.
I just want you to know,don't worry.You're not alone,we both are prolly in the same situation,so if you feel like talking to someone,you know i'm here for you.Thanks.
Lets go on a date again like the other time.Though it was only for a short time,i had fun (:

Okay,I'm still feeling as shitty as ever,actually worse that I was feeling on Friday :/
Feel like just giving up on everything and everyone.
Received about 6 text msgs last night and i only replied 1.And that 1 person was my tutor.
I am just not in the mood to talk to anyone coz i don't trust anyone anymore.Not exactly anyone i still know i trust some lovelies like Yong but i just dont wanna burden her or anyone else.Its not like their lives are going great or wadeves.

I want you to be with me more than ever now.That's why i rush to bed every night,with hopes to see yr face.
Ahh wadeves.

Love struck.

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 10:26:08 GMT

I've never felt like this before.Really.
Things have been bad but i always had certain people by my side who deff made things better,made me feel good.
Feeling effing effed-up.I swear.
A-math paper totally made me feel back to worse,seeing you with _,not talking to you and omg,someone's FB pg made it clear.
FUCK.
If you knew me well enough,the foul language itself would explain my emotions.

I really feel like doin something now.
And again if you know me well enough you prolly know what i might resort to.Fish it.I know its bad but ugh.

Srsly i hate how i'm feeling.I cant even express it.

The other day in class while LL was talking bout his life i started writing all the lovely ppl's name at the back of my foolscap.As usual started off with Chris brown,varman...then aft writing all the supposed bf's names of mine(which took up 3/4 fo the space)i wrote GAYU's name and the next name i wrote was ____.And i don't know why.Its just wadeves .No point as usual,this will be bull to you so wadeves.

The weather is not making me feel any better :/

I'm giving up on you.No more thinking of you.I realised that "we" will never ever happen.As hard as it is,i'm gonna get you outta my system.Last thing i need right now is to feel worse.You were the first one i was serious about and i want it to be the last.I hate feeling like this.Moreover its not like you even know bout my existence.

To top it all i'm haing PMC.Screw.

Was looking thru FB pics.Saw the ones we took on yr birthday.I really miss you,us.

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 00:18:26 GMT

I'm exhausted.

AND I MISS YOUUUUUU

My Man(:

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 11:08:33 GMT

There was so much of things I wanted to blog about,so much of hurt,anger and sadness that was eating me up slowly and everything.
But everything seems to be blur to me now.
Merely thinking of you sets my heart wild.

Gosh for the first time,i'm serious about someone.But wtf timing seems to be real wrong.
Fish,help me.
Only person i feel like talking to bout this whole crazy thing is sugar.Prolly cause she knows the person.I want to tell her and need to tell her.
But what's stopping me?Its like i will type out everything as a text in ma phone and will be ready to like just let it out but i will stop.
I guess i'm just afraid of what she may think of me.Like really.Worse still blabber to the person?!I mean not that sugar is like that.
Itsjust..OH FISH.I'M CRAZYYY.

Drop the act hon,cause its over.I aint that loser you used to play your dumbfish games with.Screw off.I mean it.

It’s a thug story, tell me can you handle that?

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 02:10:10 GMT

This is ridiculous not to mention,totally unfair.
All i wanted to do was to be there for you simply because i cared for you.
And what do i get?
Ah wadeves.
To think that i actually meant something to you.Wow.My stupidity i guess.

I'm outta here.
But before that i just want to say thanks to all those who text me/called me/emailed me to ask if i was aite.Really thanks all.

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hung over.

Fri, 31 Jul 2009 11:54:18 GMT

All i can say is wadeves,fine and suit yourself.

Sick and tired of all these fucked up shit thats happening.

I guess you're right,i deserve a break from everything.
Its just hard and it hurts.
I don't know.Really.
Lost and confused.

A rain date with you,a hug from you,anything.YOU where the hell are you?
You inspire me.I need to atleast see you now to get through all these.
Fuck.

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 07:12:15 GMT

OMG!!MY love<3
After Chris Brown its him(:

Sick.

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 06:55:29 GMT

HEYZZ folks.
I don't have the mood nor strength to blog.Just need to do some dedications and will be outta here.

YOU:
I want to begin by apologizing to you first.
Really am sorry.I feel so bad for disturbing you at such odd hours.Ruined your sleep too.
I'm sorry hon.
Anyways thank you so much.I don't think i have anyone in my life who would call me back or talk to me any time i need someone.
THANK YOU SO MUCH.
I am sorry about everything that has happened between us.I know things are better alr but i cant help feeling like a bitch each time i talk to you.
Ugh.But i wont let anything or anyone to ruin my friendship with you hon.Simply because you mean so damn much to me.
And yes,i hope and wish you all the best in getting to know your eyecandy soon!(:
Take care.I promise to talk to you more often.How about everyday?!Nah,am kidding.
God bless.
I love you to bits and pieces.

YOU:
I really don't know what to reply to your msg.
I am pist.With you?No i really don't know.
Look i am going through hell too but i cant just sit here and watch my friend be upset.
I JUST CANT.I am not like every damn human being around me.I care for each and every damn soul i love.That is why its so hard for me to pretend.Moreover you aint just a friend.You should know you mean so damn much to me.
Look,i know you don't do the whole talking out shit.Because i know even after you talk to me about your problems,the problems and the hurt,anger etc remains there.
All i want you to know it this I AM THERE FOR YOU.ANY TIME.
I.AM.THERE.
I.GOT.YOUR.BACK.
Yeah,it may sound cliche to you.
And you can ask me so what if i tell you?Not as if you can heal the hurt any shit.
But atleast you wont be alone.You wont sleep at night crying alone.
I'm telling you this because i know how it hurts when you cry alone.And i don't want you to cry like me each night.Alone.
I never want to see you like this,sad and stuff.
I care for you a great deal.
It hurts me to see you like this.
It hurts me because i feel that even aft all the times we spent tgth,it feels like you dont trust me.

I dont have much left to say.
I guess right now the only thing i can do is pray for you to feel better i guess.
Take care.God bless.
Peace out.

Kimmy Baby,Gf,Huang,Leah and HEYONG:
Thanks for the care and concern.Love you all.

Applauds.

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 01:59:29 GMT

I can't get over the coincidence or the priceless look.
Damn.
Will fall flat if someone dedicates the song to me.Right darl?!
Hais.

En moochu swasathil ni kalanthaa adi,
ni eppo katrodu maranthu vittai.
Fuck.

I wish that when I wake up you're there.

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 14:00:16 GMT

Hello folks.
Okay so I made my previous dumbfish post a private one.Actually i don't see the reason as to why i made it a private one.
I guess it just doesn't make a diff does it?I mean i blogged bout it to get it of my mind but apparently even aft doing so,i still feel the same so wadeves.
So apparently I'm causing too much "negative vibes" to people.So fine,i will take my leave.Alr did.Take a bow would you.
There is so much more left to say but i don't wish to harp on it anymore.I have a life dont wish to ruin it by thinking bout all these shit.It ain't like my life is so perfect and problems-free to think bout this.

I really want to give school a skip tom.I just dont feel well.Really not sick,just i don't know.Tired?
But my mother won't allow so didn't even bother asking.I really miss tons of people now.SUGAR,COUZ S,SWEETY V,GAYU MUMMY and the list goes on.
My eyes are like gonna close any second.
And there's still so much more i want to blog about.
Guess i will do a private one and hit the bed.
Nights my fellow readers!(: